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About feeling anatta
The world’s consciousness is shifting. So, is human awareness. Our awareness is shifting from the mental to the emotions and deeper consciousness realms.
The AI revolution is quite a proof of it. When the Industrial Revolution arrived, in a way it was a shift of human awareness. At that time, human awareness was shifting from the physical to the mental realms. So, the universe compensated by giving rise to machines – which would significantly reduce the physical labor. The AI revolution is on similar lines to this. These bots are reducing the basic mental labor, so that humans may evolve in other realms – emotions, creativity, and deeper consciousness.
Feeling Anatta was started along with the same idea (and feeling). The purpose of this site is to assist the audience in understanding their feelings and consciousness.
The site has four sections – feelings, healings, awareness, and insights. The ‘Feelings’ section delves deeper into the immediate and subconscious emotions that humans hold. The ‘Healings’ section assists the audience in resolving their inner blocks and in finding some peace from emotional chaos. ‘Awareness’ further goes beyond emotions. It contains content on the deepest human consciousness and the ways to have a wider experience of it. The ‘Insights’ section finds a common connection between all sections and the worldly results that come out of it.
About Dhruv
It was the end of 2022, and I wasn’t doing well. I was struggling with symptoms of anxiety, depression, loneliness, and extreme breathlessness. There were nights when I felt I wouldn’t wake up tomorrow. There were nights when I felt to seek that final relief, end it all in a single stroke of a knife.
I don’t know how I came up to that. It was all going well ‘n’ good – too good to be true. I was living a life I always dreamt of. A nomadic style, freelance, easy ‘n’ abundant money, living alone in a blissful city in the mountains. Yet, an illusion was shattered.
On New Year’s Eve, I called my parents and asked them if they would take me in. Within hours I was travelling.
For the first few weeks, we tried medical help. Physicians, psychiatrists, traditional medicines, therapies, and whatnot. But it was all to no avail. So, I decided to start with something else. And it was at this moment that I started on the path of healing and mindful awareness.
A couple of years back, I’d learned Vipassana meditation in a camp. So, I decided to try it for a few hours every day.
I would lock myself up in a dark room or just choose an isolated corner in a nearby park. Soon, the practice of a few hours changed into every-moment experience. I was meditating while I was walking, I was meditating while eating, or even when talking to someone. And one night it happened.
I was extremely triggered – don’t even remember what it was – but it had triggered some phase of a panic attack. So, I locked myself up and started the practice. But this time it was different.
I was able to go to deeper phases. It was a moment of crying, laughing, burning, and shivering, all at once. Soon I started to feel a presence. It started in the legs, and in a single second reached to the head. A warm, soothing sensation, like some big blocks were dissolved within. I could not feel my body. There was no mind. There was no ‘me’. Just a feeling that I am a dissolved, deeply integrated part of the entire existence.
I don’t know when I slept. But, after a few hours when I woke up, I was a completely different person. Like someone deep inside had died and birthed again. I was able to breathe. I was able to feel ‘normal’. All feelings of anxiety, sadness, and loneliness had gone.
However, it’s not all magic and stuff. There are moments when old emotions reappear in different forms – sometimes even with more intensity than before. But, by practicing healing and meditation I’m better able to handle them in those moments. And with each passing day, they feel to hold less ‘n’ less power over me.
